Now I know I said that I would be bad at this. Inever stick to anything but I NEEDED to find the time to get this off my chest.
Now imagine, I have a friend yuh see. Nuff people woulda refer to we as bench an batty. As youngsters we used to par but choo my daddy used to keep the noose a little tighter roun' my neck mi never used to get to go to ALL the sessions an B-B-Q dem. Nuttin nuh wrong wid dat...?Ofcourse dem time dere u couldn't tell me dat cuz as far as me concern my father did not want me to have a social life. I cant begin to count the number of times I've said that, but i digress...
Now this fren a mine did duh me a ting weh paw mi seh she never know nuh better and I did see where she did agguh get herself into problems by doing it so i mek it slide. It hurt mi still ennuh but I forgave her because... because...well..Now i thinking about it i dont know why I did ...but maybe it's that tight feeling in my neck thats preventing me from thinking clearly. I guess I forgave her cuz i figure she woulda did learn from it and I would not take the life of the friendship for a lesson that was supposed to be well learned....also because, I saw that she had hers coming. Anyways, without sladdering her and making the details of this whole saga known, I come to find out now, all of 10yrs later that annuh di one time she pull a effry stunt like that wid me.... but a few times and it was kept from me by her and a couple other people who I guess never want to be the bad news barer or who was just benefitting from what was going on at the time... Now I am thinking and feeling like I am a damned fool. B/c I woulda take up for that girl, have her back mean time she was stabbing me in mine.
But the predicament is this, we been tight from we a ten should I remove the knife she put in my back and tek it buss her throat? or should i just let it go b/c it's for the sake of not knowing all these negative things that our friendship blossomed and we are tight like blood relatives...? but if i do that wont i risk having that being done to me again...?
So I guess my question is, what should one do when a friend betrayed you even though we were kids and we are as close a blood sisters now?
Feedback welcomed....