Fariner Thoughts

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

yuh see mi dying trial

Yes I'm back again today! I guess no one has really ssen this site too tough yet.
Anyways, I had an encounter with one of haiti's most ignorant people I am sure. This man decide to run dollar cab this morning and had no change for my twenty dollars and then have the heart to turn around and cuss me about not having the change. I did want tell him sometings yuh see but i tyad a hearing bout black people hevaing nasty, suh i hole ma' tongue. i proceeded howeve, to tell him that him too ignorant and that him go buss a vessel fi a carry on so. I guess him feel seh I wouldn't answer him back. Him all threaten fi call the cops and a him a run illegal cab service. I was like you know what man you must be one the most ignorant people i have ever come across...I dont like being ethnocentric but dem blasted back bush haitian people....!

Monday, March 13, 2006

Wool over my eyes

Now I know I said that I would be bad at this. Inever stick to anything but I NEEDED to find the time to get this off my chest.
Now imagine, I have a friend yuh see. Nuff people woulda refer to we as bench an batty. As youngsters we used to par but choo my daddy used to keep the noose a little tighter roun' my neck mi never used to get to go to ALL the sessions an B-B-Q dem. Nuttin nuh wrong wid dat...?Ofcourse dem time dere u couldn't tell me dat cuz as far as me concern my father did not want me to have a social life. I cant begin to count the number of times I've said that, but i digress...
Now this fren a mine did duh me a ting weh paw mi seh she never know nuh better and I did see where she did agguh get herself into problems by doing it so i mek it slide. It hurt mi still ennuh but I forgave her because... because...well..Now i thinking about it i dont know why I did ...but maybe it's that tight feeling in my neck thats preventing me from thinking clearly. I guess I forgave her cuz i figure she woulda did learn from it and I would not take the life of the friendship for a lesson that was supposed to be well learned....also because, I saw that she had hers coming. Anyways, without sladdering her and making the details of this whole saga known, I come to find out now, all of 10yrs later that annuh di one time she pull a effry stunt like that wid me.... but a few times and it was kept from me by her and a couple other people who I guess never want to be the bad news barer or who was just benefitting from what was going on at the time... Now I am thinking and feeling like I am a damned fool. B/c I woulda take up for that girl, have her back mean time she was stabbing me in mine.
But the predicament is this, we been tight from we a ten should I remove the knife she put in my back and tek it buss her throat? or should i just let it go b/c it's for the sake of not knowing all these negative things that our friendship blossomed and we are tight like blood relatives...? but if i do that wont i risk having that being done to me again...?
So I guess my question is, what should one do when a friend betrayed you even though we were kids and we are as close a blood sisters now?
Feedback welcomed....