Wool over my eyes
Now I know I said that I would be bad at this. Inever stick to anything but I NEEDED to find the time to get this off my chest.
Now imagine, I have a friend yuh see. Nuff people woulda refer to we as bench an batty. As youngsters we used to par but choo my daddy used to keep the noose a little tighter roun' my neck mi never used to get to go to ALL the sessions an B-B-Q dem. Nuttin nuh wrong wid dat...?Ofcourse dem time dere u couldn't tell me dat cuz as far as me concern my father did not want me to have a social life. I cant begin to count the number of times I've said that, but i digress...
Now this fren a mine did duh me a ting weh paw mi seh she never know nuh better and I did see where she did agguh get herself into problems by doing it so i mek it slide. It hurt mi still ennuh but I forgave her because... because...well..Now i thinking about it i dont know why I did ...but maybe it's that tight feeling in my neck thats preventing me from thinking clearly. I guess I forgave her cuz i figure she woulda did learn from it and I would not take the life of the friendship for a lesson that was supposed to be well learned....also because, I saw that she had hers coming. Anyways, without sladdering her and making the details of this whole saga known, I come to find out now, all of 10yrs later that annuh di one time she pull a effry stunt like that wid me.... but a few times and it was kept from me by her and a couple other people who I guess never want to be the bad news barer or who was just benefitting from what was going on at the time... Now I am thinking and feeling like I am a damned fool. B/c I woulda take up for that girl, have her back mean time she was stabbing me in mine.
But the predicament is this, we been tight from we a ten should I remove the knife she put in my back and tek it buss her throat? or should i just let it go b/c it's for the sake of not knowing all these negative things that our friendship blossomed and we are tight like blood relatives...? but if i do that wont i risk having that being done to me again...?
So I guess my question is, what should one do when a friend betrayed you even though we were kids and we are as close a blood sisters now?
Feedback welcomed....
posted by Fariner @ 9:05 AM
1 Comments:
Those who ignore history are doomed to repeat it. But that is not to say that if you repeat an act that you are doomed. Life is filled with disappointment and it has nothing to do with circumstance and more to do with people. People, as you the Author, have so often said, disappoint. But in throughout the ignorance, not being ignorant, friendships solidify and people and the things of our childhood remain in our childhood. Let us all thank God we are not doomed to live in childhood. The hardest thing God ever asked us to do was forgive, and He Himself had to be convinced to do it on occasion. Forgiveness is for the offended to give and absolution is for the offender to request. Many think what is in the past should remain in the past and this is true. If we were all to bring the past to our present we would have no future. Carry not this pain and sense of betrayal into your future for it only weighs you down. My Aunt told me once “Forgive your enemy, but remember their name" does a friend deserve less. Forgive this wrong blogger but know that people and not God are fallible. “This too will pass" and friendship will prove itself again and again. Wait and see, your friend may surprise you yet
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