Well it's been a while since I've made an entry.
There has been alot going on I really cant keep up with it. I have been a bit stressed out lately b/c of some family issues and also the fact that I wish I could do more to help.
I was rejected by columbia and that hurt a bit casue now i have to re-group and come again. I need to take some time off to get my act together. The thing is there is no time to take. I mean I cant leave my job like would like to b/c i have bills to pay
. I cant go on vacation cause I have not yet accumilated that time. Sticky!
Muss work it out....
Anyways, I find that I have been been slipping into a funk and I seem to be pulling some people in it with me...so instead I decide to battel out on my own but still.....that's not quite working out the way i saw it in my head...actually it was not quite worked through there either.
but anyways gotta run....Later

yuh see mi dying trial

Yes I'm back again today! I guess no one has really ssen this site too tough yet.
Anyways, I had an encounter with one of haiti's most ignorant people I am sure. This man decide to run dollar cab this morning and had no change for my twenty dollars and then have the heart to turn around and cuss me about not having the change. I did want tell him sometings yuh see but i tyad a hearing bout black people hevaing nasty, suh i hole ma' tongue. i proceeded howeve, to tell him that him too ignorant and that him go buss a vessel fi a carry on so. I guess him feel seh I wouldn't answer him back. Him all threaten fi call the cops and a him a run illegal cab service. I was like you know what man you must be one the most ignorant people i have ever come across...I dont like being ethnocentric but dem blasted back bush haitian people....!

Wool over my eyes

Now I know I said that I would be bad at this. Inever stick to anything but I NEEDED to find the time to get this off my chest.
Now imagine, I have a friend yuh see. Nuff people woulda refer to we as bench an batty. As youngsters we used to par but choo my daddy used to keep the noose a little tighter roun' my neck mi never used to get to go to ALL the sessions an B-B-Q dem. Nuttin nuh wrong wid dat...?Ofcourse dem time dere u couldn't tell me dat cuz as far as me concern my father did not want me to have a social life. I cant begin to count the number of times I've said that, but i digress...
Now this fren a mine did duh me a ting weh paw mi seh she never know nuh better and I did see where she did agguh get herself into problems by doing it so i mek it slide. It hurt mi still ennuh but I forgave her because... because...well..Now i thinking about it i dont know why I did ...but maybe it's that tight feeling in my neck thats preventing me from thinking clearly. I guess I forgave her cuz i figure she woulda did learn from it and I would not take the life of the friendship for a lesson that was supposed to be well learned....also because, I saw that she had hers coming. Anyways, without sladdering her and making the details of this whole saga known, I come to find out now, all of 10yrs later that annuh di one time she pull a effry stunt like that wid me.... but a few times and it was kept from me by her and a couple other people who I guess never want to be the bad news barer or who was just benefitting from what was going on at the time... Now I am thinking and feeling like I am a damned fool. B/c I woulda take up for that girl, have her back mean time she was stabbing me in mine.
But the predicament is this, we been tight from we a ten should I remove the knife she put in my back and tek it buss her throat? or should i just let it go b/c it's for the sake of not knowing all these negative things that our friendship blossomed and we are tight like blood relatives...? but if i do that wont i risk having that being done to me again...?
So I guess my question is, what should one do when a friend betrayed you even though we were kids and we are as close a blood sisters now?
Feedback welcomed....

Separated

I am feeling a bit separated at the moment. Maybe separated is not quite the adjective I am looking for however, it will have to suffice. You see, a lot has been going on in ALL aspects of my life. Work is getting a bit arduous and well I am just plain tired of it. Solution: Job hunting.
My personal life..Haaa Where do I start. Lets just say that I am working out the kinks. I hope that little statement wont get me in trouble....?
I have been a tee bit worried about a friend of mine. Not about her heatlh or her safety, oh well maybe her health a little bit after all the mind and body are arguably connected ehh?
Anyhew, She's in a, how do you say Sticky situation but all I can do is wish her the best and pray and stop worrying and give her support within my capacity and not get involved....Hmm I can do that. That shoudl not be that hard. Pray for me sombody!!!!
Anyways I cant wait for her new baby to get home. It was such a joy seeing him into this world. Pity him nuh know how it vicious a RC. Him woulda tan up deh!
BUT after witnessing his birth, the flip side to that is....I aint doing it. I will rather devote my self to a life of barren-ness. That is a sure way to get me to commit to a life time subscription to abstainance. Oh man! All the blood, the pushing and heavy breathing and in between that trying to get her to push too so the baby could actually come out. OH tha trauma.
I do solemnly vow NEVER to have natural child birth. I WILL...Oh yes! I WILL have a cesarian section....Hint hint Hun I AINT DOING IT!!!!!!!!! Yes I'm a coward so what...?

A little help on the way

I have been in limbo for a while. You see a friend of mine is pegnant. It seems like ages because the due date took forever to come. Then it passed and the baby still isn't here. Now I am thinking what a lazy little boy. He doesn't want to come out. Anyways he's been two weeks over due so they are inducing today. I am so scared for her because all I can think about is the pain and the tearing and the crying and the pressure LAWWWD HAVE MERCY!!!!! I hope she makes it through okay!
Now on to other stuff my best freind has been stressing about her ACCA exams for the longest adn she finally passed...now to get the big bucks. I need fi move in wid she casue boy mi still deh yah pon the struggle. Naw get nuh fur' der than mi nose. Pray that I get into Columbia....and while you're at it a new JOB would be nice....likkle more

Another Project!!

Anyone who knows me well enough will attest to my creative and inquisitive mind. I will conjoure up the most intriguing projects but then, in that some breath they may tell you of my inability to follow through to the end. Let see how this one goes.....it should be good while it lasts....
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